Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Tiredness

I had a really busy 4 days at work this last weekend. We seem to be having more and more demos that are professionally planned, with signs and props and special recipes. I guess the vendors want to get the most out of the money spent. That's understandable. I'm not too excited about the ones that require a specific script. Usually, it's something fairly short and you have 2 or 3 to mix throughout the demo. Unfortunately, the customer doesn't always appreciate us sounding like the latest sales pitch on late night cable. Since I work at a "membership" facility, I see a lot of the same people week after week. As a Demo Lady, I often establish a certain rapport with our regulars and they expect to be treated like individuals. Some of them don't expect their regular demo person to start sounding like a parrot. I guess it will all figure itself out eventually.

On Saturday and Sunday, my demo was about stocking up your freezer with fun foods for football viewing. With 4 products, 3 needing to be cooked, we had to use the bakery ovens. Someone in the back would keep things cooking and put them in steam tables, but my partner and I had to run back and forth keeping our own steam tables out on the floor supplied. Plus, we did our own relieving for breaks and lunchs. I felt like I was running my legs off. Talk about race walking! By Sunday night, I was almost too tired to sleep! I work with such a great team of people though, that I had plenty of help, for which I am very grateful! Next weekend, I'm looking forward to only 2 days working.

My Aunts and I are planning to drive to the mountains on Sunday to see fall leaves. Of course, we're expecting snow in the high altitudes the next 2 days. Hopefully, that won't ruin the leaves. I'm trying to decide whether to pick my green tomatoes tonight or take a chance on it getting too cold tonight.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

New Book

I've been reading a 10 page article on a book that was written over a period of time by Carl G Jung.It was written in a big red leather bound book by hand and with his own color drawings. It was written during a time of his life when he was under going periods of visions, nightmares etc. when he was a little concerned that he was going out of his mind. It started when he was 38 years old and continued several years. Apparently, he began welcoming it and ended up anylizing himself. The book remained in a cupboard in his home throughout his life and even after his death, for awhile. Eventually, his family put it into a bank deposit box in a bank in Zurich.

The family,for many years, resisted requests to have the book published. A few years ago, a man named Noll, published a book that was very critical of Jung, making the family unhappy. Then a scholar from London, let them know that there were ,at least, 2 partial copies of the "Red Book" available that might be published. The family decided to publish a copy of the original,along with a translation from the German and over 1000 footnotes, provided by the scholar from London. At least the book would be Carl Jungs own words.

It seems that there is a lot of unusual, for a scientist, material in the book. There are myths, achetypes, even the Devil. It should be interesting reading. I've always been more interested in Jung than in Frued anyway. I'm not sure when it will be out, but I'm going to watch for it.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Time Flies!

I just realised that I haven't posted here since September 8. Oops! For the last couple of weeks I have been back to my old schedule, working Thurs, Fri, Sat and Sun one week, then just Fri and Sat the next week. I still get 4 days off a week, but somehow , it doesn't feel like it. I know, it's all in my head. I was just enjoying a normal paycheck, when I was told our team lead had been sticking her neck out and hoping for paid demos for us. Now she's been told by headquarters, that she can only schedual us for demos already set. That means, we have to be called in for last minute demos and are supposed to keep our calendars clear. Like that is going to happen, especially if she calls us with only a days' warning. Oh well, I still have a job, right?

Today was a beautiful day. It was sunny and not quite 70 degrees. I love this kind of weather! I played hooky and didn't mow the lawn this morning. My Aunt Maureen had a doctors appointment in Salt Lake, so we all 3 went in. After her appointment, we went shopping. I needed new work shoes. I think working on my feet all the time is makeing my feet wider and flatter. I also got some fun fall fabric to make me a new blouse to wear for Autumn Saturdays at work. We normally wear black trousers and white tops. We look like penguins. On Saturdays, we're assigned different colors. Last week we wore yellow and looked like honey bees. This past Sat was green. Next week, it's fall leaf colors. During October, we'll probably go Halloween or Fall. Pretty much the same in November until after Thanksgiving, then we'll be into Christmas colors and designs. It breaks up the monotany and allows us a little self expression.

We've had quite a few tomatoes from our little patch. With only one surviving cucumber plant, there's not been too much if them. I just hope we don't get an early freeze. The strange plant that has been growong out near the front sidewalk is either a pumpkin, or another squash. there are 3 little fruits so far.I don't think the season will last long enough to really get something from the plant, but you never know.

Tuesday, September 08, 2009

The Blahs

You know how some days just don't seem worth getting up for? That's where I am right now. Every day seems to stretch out before me the same as the one before with only slight variation. It may be because I seemed to be up and down all night, not really getting a good night's sleep. I've noticed that I get quite unenthusiastic when I'm sleep deprived, especially when that deprivation is from nothing much, certainly not from excitement.

I'm back to my old schedual at work, at least, for now. I guess we'll see whether the economy is looking up enough to keep our hours up. I get a raise this month. It's not what I've got in the past, but the fact that I still have a job, much less a raise, is certainly something to be thankful for. I am thankful, but I think I'm also bored. I have certain tasks each day, which I do. I watch the same things on TV, endlessly. I'm even re-reading one of my favorite series of books. Still, everything is the same with only small variations.

I've always believed that boredom is the fault of the boree. Is that a word? Anyway, I should be able to get out of this funk. Maybe I'm enjoying it? New project for tomorrow, right after I mow the lawn......Find something exciting to do, or at least interesting.

Friday, September 04, 2009

Politics?

I'm getting so depressed reading the news lately. It seems that we, as a nation are more polarized than ever. The president can't even give a little pep talk to the nations' school children without causing a furor. George H W Bush gave one during his presidency, with nary a ripple in the political firmament, but let Obamma try, and the conservatives claim he's trying to push his socialism agenda on innocent children! The mistrust in this country is rampent. The stories going around are so wild and unbelievable as to be laughable, but there are still people quoting rediculous things with apparent belief. Doesn't anyone stop to think about the stories and ideas they are passing on with such outrage and enjoyment? Apperently, there are people who would rather let someone else think for them. It's more fun to repeat outrageous stories and get others as excited as they are.

It's beginning to feel like when people relished passing on all the dirty laundry type of gossip over the back fence or around the water cooler at work. All the political junk going around has the same flavor of the worst sort of hurtful gossip that some people seem to love so much. Isn't it time for America to grow up and take some responsibilty for ourselves and our country?

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

Aging With Grace

My Son and Daughter-in-Law are bemoaning and feeling their age it seems. They are 45 and 44 respectively. Here I am at 65, and they're worrying in their 40s! I don't remember being too concerned at being in my 40s. I remember turning 30 and being glad that I was finally old enough to be taken seriously. I never worried too much about birthdays until the big 5 0. I think that turning 50 was traumatic because I was newly single, going through a divorce. It was scary. Fortunately, I had a considerate male friend who brought me roses, took me to dinner and a movie, and helped me realise that my life wasn't over.

I read an article recently about going through life without being overly concerned about age. The trick seems to be to find ways to continue through life with the state of youth available to us if we don't lock ourselves down with beliefs that hold us in place. I had a friend who became a grandmother at about age 38. She was very glad to have a grandchild, but, somehow, she seemed to believe that her life was now defined by being a grandmother. She saw herself as someone who tended the baby and stayed at home in her rocker.Can you beleive that? At age 38! Just unreal. Fortunately, she eased off on the rocking chair, went to work and started the next half of her life. At least she didn't totally let steriotypical beliefs ruin her life.

We come to life in a state of youth, with all it's flowering before us.We can continue through life with the state of youth available to us if we don't lock ourselves down with beliefs that hold us in place. It's fine to be stable, but it's not fun to stagnate.

The author of the article, Margaret Stortz, is a minister. She gives 3 attitudes to help you keep living youthfully. Make no comparisons, Make no judgements, and delete your need to understand. When we make comparisons between ourselves and others, we are held in place by them. The ideas of "better than" or "less than" bind us and limit our views of ourselves. We get stuck, and that leads to feeling less young. When we make judgemants of ourselves or others, they are often censorious. They have a negative bite. This tends to take the life out of healthy, flowing thinking. We can always assess our actions, seeing what works and what doesn't, but judging things either good or bad, tends to put us and others into boxes and limits our feelings and actions.

The third idea, not needing to understand, can be harder for some than for others, but the need to understand can cause problems. It's normal to want to understand why something is taking place. But what if whatever is happening is beyond our understanding? By insisting on knowing why, we can sidetrack ourselves into dead end conditions. We can over anaylise and get obssessive about our problems. This can distract us from looking at life as an adventure, full of wonder and not really knowing where it will lead. We can ask, who am I?and where am I going, what will I be next month or next year? These questions can't really be answered. We can say what we intend for our futures, what we want to experience, but we need to keep an open mind, because sometimes, God has a much better experience for us than we hope for. We all want the best for ourselves and our loved ones. That is good, we need to expect the best. Still, we need to keep open to the possibilities that God wants us to experience, He can think much bigger than we can, and as a loving Father, he wants us to have the very best.

I know that to someone who feels like they are hanging on to life by their fingernails, looking at life as an adventure is difficult. Life can be a great trial, but sometimes, just the idea that life can be different may, at times be an incentive. The idea that there are people "out there" living with adventure and possibilities, may help them to believe sometimes, that someday they will get to that place as well.