I was on Facebook today and a friend posted a video from You Tube. It was a clip of Mama Cass Elliot singing  "Sing Your Own Kind of Music". I always loved the Mamas and the Papas, especially Mama Cass with her clear, pure voice.  The song has been running through my head, as good songs do, but it's giving me a nudge, making me ask myself some questions. Am I singing my own kind of music? What is that music? Am I really living the kind of life I want to live and maybe need to live?

There's an old quotation, something about dying with your song unsung or something like that. I've just spent the last year of my life battling cancer. I've had to admit that I'm not likely to be immortal. At least the body isn't.

I think most people have an idea that they are, perhaps meant to do something special or important with their lives, even if it's special only to them.

I read somewhere that before we're born, we decide what it is we want to do with our lives and even choose the parents we'll have so that we'll be more likely to accomplish whatever it is we intend.

My father always told me that if we didn't do all that God wanted us to do that we'd have to come back in another lifetime to do it right. My feeling is that we are the ones who decide what each lifetime will mean, and God will help us to do it.

I know that not everyone believes in reincarnation, but for me, it's kind of a comfort. If I'm wrong, so be it.  
                        
                                          

I'm reading a book called "Earth" by David Brin who is an astrophysicist. It takes place in 2038 and earth is suffering from global warming. It's interesting that this book was written in 1990 and he's trying to extrapolate  from what was known or believed in that time to nearly 50 years into the future.

People have to wear dark glasses and protect their skin due to increased sun danger from the thinner ozone layer. There are migrations to the Yukon because it has become more temperate. People want to go to Patagonia for the same reason, and the Antarctic is also thawing. There are "arks" to protect dying wildlife and there are new religions based on Gaia worship, you know, Mother Earth.

Of course all of these things are just the context for the problem of the mini black hole that's circling around the earth's core. Some scientist developed it for a South American Government who claims it's for powering the electric grid.

Now, in 2012, comes an anouncement from the National Weather Service that July was the hottest month ever recorded. The past year has also been the hottest on record. I also read an op-ed article from James Hansen who is the head of NASA. He was one of the first scientists to warn about global warning and he says now that he's afraid he underestimated the speed of the warming.

In the meantime, the conservative people in the government are still claiming it just ain't so. I live in Utah and our legislators are quite sure it's just a scam. More like wishful thinking. I'm not sure how much more of the Arctic  ice needs to melt or how many polar bears need to die before we get serious about CO2 in the air.

It's 3:30 AM and obviously I'm not asleep. I've planted potatoes on Farmville, posted some pictures, read another friends blog, but I'm still awake. I really hate it when this happens. I was asleep for awhile but when I got up to the bathroom, I couldn't go back to sleep. My cat doesn't help. She figures, if I'm awake I should pet her and pet her.

I think that my brain just gets into high gear and won't stop. I've even thought of going for a walk. I live in a quiet neighborhood, but still, it's the middle of the night. People who happened to be awake might be concerned with seeing my wandering around in my nightgown.

I guess I'll have to give in and take one of my herbal remedies. Hopefully I can salvage some of the night.